10/1/2-26 As I'm writing this, it seems my life has taken a sharp turn for the worse because my balance has gotten so bad that now I need walking sticks, and I can't go down my stairs to leave the house. My eyesight has gotten so bad that I think I have eye macular degeneration, and I'm going to be blind or need a transplant So I don't know what is going to happen to me, but it doesn't sound good, and I don't want to die and see Sean. You didn't have to do anything to wreck my life because it just happened without you! Because my mom did it on her own by making me keep waiting until it was my turn, and now it might not even happen
It seems my mom is not the only problem with my career plan, because there are some old ladies in my neighborhood, too. After all, I have overheard some teens who are fans of mine defending me to them once, but the next time, after the mall thing, I overheard those ladies talking to my mom about how I should get a regular job and etc like they know me so well and that my dream is so crazy ugh! and one lady was thinking someone was a teen and she so screamed and I'm laying in bed knowing she thinks the teens are stupid and she knows better than them ugh! Those ladies know nothing about me and think I'm a spoiled brat who is freeloading off my parents! I don't know what to do! Please help me out! Because the reason I have no job is that my mom, who never wanted me to get a job, after I felt good because I was on antidepressants, and that was 200,5 and I always tell her I want to get a job, a nd she said no, I don't think you can ever get a job with being special ed, etc...